All these men, I see, "talk" like they own up their emotions. They claim to be "strong" and "happy", but the pain, ache that I see in their eyes, and how they fall so easily for a man made me wonder if they are actually ever emotionally strong.
Most of us live our lives saying that I am like this, because it's my nature. May be it could have been something that happened in your childhood that is still stopping you from living the romance you want to.
The lack of discussions around the politics of social interactions between multiple forces and the mentally ill person at the intersection of these forces needs to be broken, because existence cannot be free of politics, and any non-conforming act or condition will be met with the weapon of shame.
Nervous about broaching the topics of mental health, mental illness, and sometimes of intense or unpleasant emotions generally, we further proscribe discussion of these topics and the challenges that we all face.
Mood swings, depression, anxiety, all of these affect you in an invisible way. I am yet to accept myself this way, to be comfortable with being a psychologically ill patient requiring treatment. But yes, I am consciously trying.